Where Do We Go From Here?

To say that today has been an emotional roller coaster is about as much of an understatement as saying that Robin Williams was merely a good comedian. Not much justice is given and everyone knows there’s more to it than that. It’s been years since I’ve last really gotten myself worked up about God knows what, and today I found myself overcome in a frenzy of feelings that I never even knew I was capable of feeling. To be honest, I should have seen it coming. Emotions have been building up for weeks now. Stress from school (both class and otherwise), trying to figure out job things so I can afford to live in Hawai’i for just a few months longer, missing home…all of it has formed this ever-present conglomeration of dark clouds above my head. And I’ve swatted at the flies of emotion whilst telling myself that I don’t have time to feel anything because there’s too much to be done and not enough time to do it. But that might not have been my smartest idea because the flies multiplied, the dark clouds released their rain, and today was the kind of day where all I could do was cry.